the start of my ending....

the start..started on sunday/monday midnight.
my daddy left for china at midnight..and now im stuk wit mai mother and brother till the end of the year >_< sigh* this is gona be one hell of a ride!!
hrm last sunday we had a garage sale..argh soo tiring* haha..>___<"
it supposed to start at 10am, but then all the ppl start coming in at abt 9ish. and argh woke me up =/ grr* hrmm, yerh..busy day..selling..stuff lolz
we went out for dinna that night too. we were meeting up wit mai daddys college and his wife for a farwell dinner^^ but omgosh ..major misunderstanding and communication problems!!! ahah >___<"
we went to nb and walked to "billy lee's" and waited there for one hourrr !! and then realised that we supposed to be at "uncle billy's" argh!! haha >__< how many billys do u need in nb? haha o.O~~ so finlayy we all met up and all was goood..but we wwaited for soo long for dinner to be served! lolz sigh* but it was goood...mMmmm hahah =D and then went for bbltea laters =) hehe *smiles*
sunday/monday midnight...mai daddy went to the airport. my mom and bro went to the airport and i was supposed to too..but sigh* i seriously cant do airports!! lolx coz iwl piss myself crying!! lolz >___< i cant help myslef..! hhahaha i alreadi teared for him at the door ffs..lolz if im at airport..>_< argh* i duno wut will happen but it will be hard lor =/ sigh* iwl miss himmmmm =(
yer and now im stuk wit mai mother ! arhg* haha >_< this is gona be hard stuffs!!
newaise today be tuesay morning^^hehe and im in bed watching tvee...and mai msn wont let me sign in...sigh* dodgy msn !! argh soo annnoying >____<" *blEH*
i cant think nemore now..im tired and mai head is pounding..!! been like this for a while now >_< sigh but msn keeps me awake! lolz..but now no msn..then hrmm nowun to talk to so sleep time !! hehehe
yah i better go sleep sooon.. i gotta wake up earli tmr or else iwl get ass kikd by... mother ! *grrRR*

sometimes i juz wish that i could sleeep and never wake up!
coz in mai dreams my life is just perfect
everyone is happy and nowun is hurt, there are no pain and lies...
i got everythin i need, and everything i want
ther is smiles and no tears
love and no hate...
if onli my dreams came true...
if onli the world was a better place, like the one in mai head...
my dream tale, my fairytale ending...
all just an image...blurred and lost in the morning...
i wish i could sleep forever and dream alwaise...
coz the life i live now..>__< hurts..soo much..
there is too many things happening around me..
and i duno how to keep up wit it all..
whuy cant she understand that im going thru alot too..
shes not the onli one whos gotta deal wit the change...
and whuy cant he see what he is doing to me?..
whuy cant he make things right agen..
are ther such things as happy endings?
second chances..??
*sigh* i wana sleep and i wwana dream..
and i dun wna wake
coz every morning wne the sun shines...
i dun look forward for the rest of the dayy..
not like i used to..those days...some time ago...
wen i open my eyes, a tear rolls down mai cheek..
knowing that mai dream was juz a wish that wont come tru..
and i gota face realtity and the facts of life..
sigh* im talkn shiet now..>_<
hrmmmm...........

today was a reali nice day btw! heheh not sunnny/hot but not freeezing cold!! it was hrm nice and windyy, wit the sun shining thru the clouds above...^^
hrm should hav more of these days more often =) hehe
oki wel ...time to watch tveee then KO...haha
*gRrr @ msn* >____<"

^*goooodnights all*^ and ^*sweeeeeet dreammmmmzz*^